This one bothers me a ton. I’m a very curious person, no wonder in that. I dig and dig and just dig even deeper at times and it all becomes too convoluted. Why make it so in the first place? Just download a to-do app and follow along a stupid lines of ticks. Or, maybe, a pomodoro timer app that has a cheap in-app purchase option, so that my lizard brain can feel good about it.
I’m either too focused on things totally uncalled for, or just lost, left in limbo. That’s my doing, of course. I can’t stay focussed or motivated on things that matter for me as a person. I wanna research a topic but end up reading random history or weird, niche grammar of a language that’s just not gonna provide for me, or seek my company. Feeling lonely. This bothers me a chunk much. If that makes sense. Why can’t I stay motivated? I mean, I want to. I try to. What’s the deal with me? Too many questions always get things going, like a good research article. But does it work for self-improvement? I mean, does anything work for it? What do we do? Or what should we not do? Is it something to undo or do further more and ahead? Maybe just stop with it, and carry on with what there is to do. I’m just too confused and it bother me a lot.